ilut's world

Sunday, August 09, 2009

been too long..

it's been too long since i wrote anything in my blog. well..it's not like anyone would read it. still i think i will write things that has been going on in my life now. like my personal diary but on the net. i think i like to write but i don't know what to write. well.. 1st thing first. i got a new job. at jabatan pendaftaran negara. JPN in short form. basically i made identity cards for malaysian and birth and death certificates. it's been 17 months since i had this job. at first i was posted at putrajaya. but i don't want that. so i asked for a transfer. they posted me at jb. well better at jb than pj. but still it wasn't enough for me. i need to get back to bp. all my friends are here and i still miss my old job. so asked for another transfer. then 5 months ago i got transfered. huhu...oh the joy. i was getting really tired going back and forth form jb to bp every week. at last no more driving for 3 hours every week. getting up at 5.30 just to make the punch card not going red on me. but miss the hectic works at jb. even though it was very tiring but the experience is none to second. where can u find people always at their throat every second of their time. huh..but good experience. really good. now..the most recent stories. hahaha..think i'll post it another day. huhu..

Monday, September 17, 2007

Puasa...

hari ni dah masuk 5 hari puasa. jap lagi raya plak. kekeke... letih betul puasa tapi sonok sebab setahun sekali je sebulan puasa ni. semua orang kena puasa plak tu. jadi sama2 rasa. pastu aku plak dah gila katun skang ni. asik tengok katun je sampai tak cukup tido. tiap2 ari donlod katun. macam katun aku dan tengok skang ni. aku memang dah gila lah.

Monday, August 06, 2007

happy day

hari ni aku happy semacam je. tak tau ah nape. for the past few weeks i've been down. but this week i feel alive. kisah lama dulu..8 tahun lepas masa aku kat itm lagi. first love...takkan dapat dilupakan sampai skang.. walaupun dah 4, 5 tahun berpisah tapi masih ingat lagi. maybe some say i fogot all about them. but it's not true. still fresh in my mind. every detail..it's just that sometimes it hurts so i pretend that i forgot all about it. a lot happened then. very painful thing that i wished i never would have done. but still..i happened and i just have to bear with it. and i thought that i would make the same mistakes again..but still i did it. i just never learned my lessons. but well..it's fun. all the crying..the heartbreaking..it just makes u feel like a normal human being. i love it. maybe it sounds like crazy but i love it. the first person that has teach me about love..so madly in love at that time. nothing else matter at that time. well..now it's just me. me alone..maybe it's for the best. i'd have been cursed. to live alone by myself never to have happiness. well it's not true. i still have my friends. ok lah.. but sometimes i feel lonely. i need someone to love me and i need to love someone. but i just can't find the right one. ermmm..sambung ah pas ni..ok.

Thursday, July 05, 2007

banjir lagi oiii...

ni video banjir awal tahun. baru le nak upload.

Wednesday, July 04, 2007

errrrrrrrrrrmmmmmmmmmm

Sebenarnya aku sedih tapi ntah kenapa aku nampak happy je. 07/07/07 ni aku ada program kat summit. ingatkan nak buat tarikh tu jadi special ckit. tapi tak dapat kot. semalam aku buat keje tak betul ckit. aku dapat tau adalah orang tu..ermm.. ntah ek apa nak cakap pun tak tau. tapi yang penting apa yang aku dapat tau semalam buatkan aku jadi sedih ah. ada masa air mata aku keluar. tapi kat ofis ni tak bleh nak tunjukkan air mata. ye ah aku kan orang yang kuat gila..nanti bos aku cakap aku hati kama plak walau hakikatnya memang ye pun. aku rasa baik aku teruskan idup macam dulu je kot. walau apa pun aku tetap sendiri. dah biasa sendiri...ok lah. jangan harapkan orang lain untuk teruskan idup. usaha sendiri. baru bermakna kehidupan kita..btul tak? setiap kali aku baca email dia aku nangis. btul2 nangis. tak tau kenapa aku sedih sangat. Arghhhhhh...biar ah. nasib aku memang macam ni. terima je ah. hidup je untuk hari ni. hari esok..esok ah kita pk.

Sunday, July 01, 2007

My Friend...



30/6/07-1/7/07...dalam masa 24 jam aku jadi orang yang paling happy sekali dalam dunia ni. An old friend of my past came to visit me. The best thing is i got to show her how my life has change since she last saw me. Maybe it's not enough to move the world but it's good enough to show her how i've changed. I showed her how my life goes around here. Where i work..meet my friends. The best thing that has ever happened to me since 1st March 2005. Tapi walau apa pun tetap ada jurang antara kitaorang. Upperclass vs.lowerclass. The honourable lawyer vs. just some handyman. Lingkungan kawan antara kitaorang tak sama. I feel inferior to her. Aku tau aku ada gunanya tapi ntahlah...kitaorang jauh berbeza. Once dia dah balik kl, i knew that it is time..time to let go. To that friend of mine...thank u so much. I felt the happiness when u came. Take care..love u so much.

Monday, April 16, 2007

hidup..

memang hidup ni tak seindah yang kita rancang. selalu je kita inginkan yang terbaik untuk kita tapi apa daya kita. semua yang kita nak bergantung kat orang lain. kalau orang tu tak bagi, kita tak dapat lah apa yang kita nak. kecewa..tapi boleh ke kita paksa orang lain. tak semua orang paham diri kita. walaupun ada ketika yang kita rasa kita dah jumpa soulmate kita tapi keadaan tu kejap je. because in reality..nothing will last forever. aku harap orang yang baca benda bleh paham..kita berhak untuk hidup bahagia. kita yang tentukan semua..just give ourself a chance.

Wednesday, March 21, 2007

Banji kat Senggarang...


banjir kat umah masa bulan 1 aritu. air naik sampai paras lutut. nasib baik umah tak hanyut. kkekeke... nasib baik skang ni tak ujan lagi. dahsyat betul masa banjir tu. umah tak penah banjir pun jadi mangsa. memang pelik banjir kali ni.

Tuesday, August 01, 2006

PROGRAM XPDC & EKSPLORASI JELAJAH PULAU RAKAN MUDA JOHOR 2006


PROGRAM
XPDC & EKSPLORASI JELAJAH PULAU RAKAN MUDA JOHOR 2006
28-31 JULAI 2006
PULAU BESAR, MERSING

Wednesday, July 26, 2006

Program Ekspidisi & Eksplorasi Jelajah Pulau Rakan Muda Johor 2006.
Pulau Besar, Mersing.
28 - 31 Julai 2006.

Thursday, July 20, 2006

14 - 17 September ni Program Mutiara Kasih Rakan Muda Siri II (Parlimen Sri Gading)
Tempat kat Sek. Men. Sri Gading.
Sapa yang duk dekat2 tu datanglah.

Wednesday, July 19, 2006

Bintang di Syurga....


Bintang Di Syurga..

Masihku merasa angkuh
Terbang kenanganku jauh
Langit kan menangkapku
Walau kan terjatuh

Dan bila semua tercipta
Tanpa harusku merasakan
Cinta yang tersisa
Hampa hidup terasa

Lelah tatapku mencari
Arti untukku membagi
Menemani langkahku
Namun tak bererti

Dan bila semua tercipta
Tanpa harusku merasakan
Cinta yang tersisa
Hampa hidup terasa

Bagai bintang di syurga
Dan seluruh warna
Dan kasih yang setia
Dan cahaya nyata

Oh bintang di syurga
Berikan cerita
Dan kasih yang setia
Dan cahaya nyata

Monday, July 17, 2006

Pesanan untuk semua belia2....jangan terjebak ngan dadah. Gelap masa depan. Hancur semua..sayangilah orang yang sayang anda..Ingat tu...
gambar masa Program Mutiara Kasih Rakan Muda Batu Pahat 2006. Baru je semalam abis. Tu yang penat sangat. Ingat nak cuti. Tapi bos tak bagi plak. Yelah...kan orang kuat dia. Kena keje je ah. Program ni ok ah. Banyak pengisian. Kitaorang siap bawak kuda lagi. Malam tu ada Bandi Amuk datang. Orng2 kampung punya ah suka. Malam tadi Pertandingan Kugiran Rakan Muda plak. Program ni memang sukses ah. Pas ni kita buat kat Sri Gading, Rengit ngan Semarang plak. Mintak2 sukses ah gak. Kepada belia2 yang duk dkat2 kawasan tu silalah datang ke program kitaorang eh. Banyak benda ada kat sana. Jumpa korang....

hidup aku....

penat betul keje. lagi2 keje sukarela ni. tapi nak buat macam mana. dah nama pun keje. keje je lah